It started with the parades and the marching bands before becoming a familiar and popular TV show. One that generated millions of viewers and followers. It was one that people watched during dinner; they streamed it at work, and spoke about it online.
It was as real as reality could be.
So why, then, was Gerry unhappy?
He was the number one celebrity in a celebrity driven society. He was ubiquitous, like air, and felt like he could float like lithium on water. Or more accurately, he felt that he could jump into a pool of water and explode on contact like caesium, that every thing he did had an oversized reaction by his fans.
He had everything, and everybody, watching his every move, mimicking every tic and mannerism, they even recited his catch phrase "Domo Sorry-Gato" at every chance in solidarity to his inane characterisms.
So why, then, was Gerry so unhappy?
There were whole cottage industries dedicated to his celebrity. TMZ followed him around like mosquitos in Florida and even Facebook streamed his every public act for everyone to see.
He had all the money he could ever need; in fact, he had more money than anyone in history would ever need. He bought cars, planes, islands. With his wealth he "diversified" into other investments in his portfolio, being an angel investor in tech to investing heavily in startups specializing in advanced tech. He even bought, through legal and paralegal means his own countries. He didn't buy countries outright, he just spent enough money on elections that he was able to influence the outcomes to meet his particular tastes and desires.
To wit, Gerry, born Gerald P Wolt had everything, was everything. But he was unhappy.
At 5 years old Gerry began performing for friends and family, dancing The Charleston, quickly followed by a quick tip of the hat, and wiggle of an imaginary cigar. Quickly he learned that he could make those people around him happy, but more importantly, he learned that his dancing would get him anything he wanted. It was a quick lesson and one he understood even at such a young age.
As he got older, Gerry realized that if he smiled a certain way, he'd get the obvious cheers and accolades, but if he tweaked that smile just ever-so-slightly, he could elicit a kind of euphoria from his fans. It was as if the parts of their brain that held individuality, conscious thought, reason, and rationale all got lobotomized and all that was left was the limbic lobe, the part of the brain that controlled happiness. In other words, Gerry learned at a very delicate age that by making others laugh, he could control them. Like the fungi Ophiocordyceps that controls the carcass of the invaded ant, Gerry could invade his audience through his performance and make them servile to his wants and whims.
So why, then, was Gerry so unhappy?
Thursday, April 20, 2017
Sunday, March 5, 2017
Do What's Right
Just Do What's Right
It's the first time in about a year you've had a chance to eat out at a restaurant.
Money's tight, and it's difficult to get everyone together at the same time.
While you're sitting at dinner with your friends, you realize that it's 5 days away from payday. Perhaps you're having a beer, or a glass of wine, while your table is having appetizers. You see in your head the price of your dinner bill skyrocket, and you're not sure it was a good idea to eat here.
A young couple at the table next to you is in the process of paying their bill before they leave. As they get up, they walk away from their table as to leave the restaurant.
A moment or two passes, and you can see that under the table is some money sitting on the floor.
You get up and see it's two $100 bills.
What do you do?
Do you chase after the couple to return the money? Which way did they go?
Do you flag down the restaurant staff? Are you sure they would even know who's money it is?
When things are difficult, the path we choose is the result of weighing the options and deciding the best way forward.
It can be a choice between taking the longer, more arduous path versus doing what's simple, easy and fun.
It can be a choice of doing what's right and what's easy.
Too often it seems that what we want is in direct competition with what we need. That shouldn't be the case and it shouldn't be the result of a bifurcated trial.
Every day we're presented with two options. The path we choose leads to another set of binary choices that lead so on ad infinitum.
It becomes an infinite loop that perpetuates itself forever.
Just do what's right.
"Always Do Right.
This Will Gratify Some People And Astonish The Rest"
It's the first time in about a year you've had a chance to eat out at a restaurant.
Money's tight, and it's difficult to get everyone together at the same time.
While you're sitting at dinner with your friends, you realize that it's 5 days away from payday. Perhaps you're having a beer, or a glass of wine, while your table is having appetizers. You see in your head the price of your dinner bill skyrocket, and you're not sure it was a good idea to eat here.
A young couple at the table next to you is in the process of paying their bill before they leave. As they get up, they walk away from their table as to leave the restaurant.
A moment or two passes, and you can see that under the table is some money sitting on the floor.
You get up and see it's two $100 bills.
What do you do?
Do you chase after the couple to return the money? Which way did they go?
Do you flag down the restaurant staff? Are you sure they would even know who's money it is?
When things are difficult, the path we choose is the result of weighing the options and deciding the best way forward.
It can be a choice between taking the longer, more arduous path versus doing what's simple, easy and fun.
It can be a choice of doing what's right and what's easy.
Too often it seems that what we want is in direct competition with what we need. That shouldn't be the case and it shouldn't be the result of a bifurcated trial.
Every day we're presented with two options. The path we choose leads to another set of binary choices that lead so on ad infinitum.
It becomes an infinite loop that perpetuates itself forever.
Just do what's right.
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
A Journey Worth Discovering - Why Getting Lost Is Your Best Path Forward
When Lost In The Forest, Hug A Tree
Just Make Sure You Get Lost First
This blog is many things. In part storytelling and in part instructional. I've written in the past about how to write and publish Amazon Kindle books using basic strategies on using Amazon's Kindle publishing. It's easy to upload and publish, but there is a whole slew of other things I'd like to write about on this blog.
This is a post about finding your way by getting lost first.
As a teen, I spent a lot of time outdoors and growing up in Southern California affords quick access to many places. Any point on the map, from the ocean to the mountains and deserts are but a short drive.
In a matter of hours, you can go hike the forest, swim in a pond beneath ice-cold waterfalls, pack up the car, drive to the beach and catch a sunset surf-sesh.
With family, we explored amazing wilderness parks like Yosemite and Yellowstone, as well as all points between.
Often with my friends and their family, I'd spend a good portion of my early teen years hiking the John Muir Trail, the Cascade Mountains, Mount Whitney, among many other places.
There were so many memories and lessons learned along the way. To a great part, I'm sure it's part of who I've become.
But one particular adventure above all that really formed my belief in teamwork and self-discovery.
At 5:00 am, a group of 20 of us, me, my friends and their dads set off for a weeklong hiking trip through the Sierra's.
The day before we each went over our pack list, divvied up the food, water purification tablets, cooking equipment, tents, anything we could carry and need, with the dads taking the heavier items while we took the tents and our own bags, and together we all packed our gear.
We revisited our itinerary with everyone having a map and outline of where we'd be and when. One of the families staying behind was our emergency contact, with the day-by-day plan of our hike just in case something went wrong.
Just in case.
Once we loaded up our gear, we divided ourselves into the cars and trucks of our little convoy. The dads drove themselves, sometimes without their own son in their car. As kids, we divided ourselves by our friends and by our expected diversions.
Some chose to ride together by what they planned to read, this was a time before Amazon Kindle books were even created, so it was real, hard bound books. Some of the boys chose their cars by the games they would play; others chose their rides not by what they wanted to do, rather, some chose who they'd ride with by who they wanted to avoid being stuck in a car for a few hours.
As soon as everyone was settled in, our little convoy drove for a couple of hours to our base-camp, all of us watching the claustrophobic city open up to the broad horizons that stretched toward the surging mountains. It was summer, and we had turned our backs on the cluster and confinement of the city for a week of unfettered exploration. I dozed off a few different times along the way, 5 am being awful early.
Once we pulled into the base camp, we parked the cars and stretched our legs a bit. Some went off to shit in the woods, others merely to take a piss. The plan was to set camp, stay for the night, then begin our 50-mile circular trek back to this particular spot.
The morning came a little too quick. Anyone who's slept outside on the cold earth knows the stiffness that comes with sleeping on dirt. Even as a teenager it takes you a while to warm up, to stretch out the night stiffness that settles in. The air is refreshing and recuperative, but there's something to be said for the beauty of sleeping in bed.
After a short breakfast, we broke camp and set out on the first leg of our itinerary. The terrain was rough, there were periods of where the trail had degraded to mere gravel. Footing could be slippery, especially on slopes that didn't have switchbacks.
We walked in the buddy system; each of us partnered with another teen, and you walked at whatever pace the slowest could muster. Typically you chose to match speed with speed, but there was some partners content on drifting back.
The kids led the way, the dads trailing. We all had a rule that if the last dad caught up, you had to clean the "latrine" at base camp. So we hiked with momentum and a purpose.
About mid-day, the clouds rolled in, and the sky turned gray. The change in the air was noticeable. When we had been able to be shirtless, now we were digging for our long-sleeves, and wondering about where we each had packed our rain parkas.
At once, the rain began. Followed closely by lighting, the kind of lightning you hear during one of those storms that shake the house and scare the dog but never actually see.
It wasn't long before the lightning struck a boulder not too far from where we were walking. The shrapnel shot out, piercing what skin we had exposed from out of our parkas, pants, and packs. It sounded as if the thunder was a 12 gauge shot that went off next to your head. It boomed around your brain, shaking the snot out of your sinuses and down your throat.
This wasn't the first time we were camping and hiking through horrible weather. The difference this time was that with the rain and lightning, we had lost the trail. We were wandering off course, and because of the lightning, we were running further off our path than we had planned. We had set out that morning to make our way to Purple Lake, but now we were surely lost. It wasn't long that we found a lake, and to this day I'm not certain it was Purple Lake, but it would suffice for the time being.
That's because avid hikers know that if you lose your way in the forest, you want to stay in one spot so the search team can find you.
And in short order, the dads were able to find our location and meet up with us, where we set camp and stayed through the night.
The point of this discussion is that by writing your thoughts and publishing them, you have ZERO control over how they'll be received. And publishing on any platform, whether a blog like this or using Amazon Kindle books as a platform for your story, you have ZERO control over how it'll be received. This is a post about finding your way by getting lost first.
As a teen, I spent a lot of time outdoors and growing up in Southern California affords quick access to many places. Any point on the map, from the ocean to the mountains and deserts are but a short drive.
In a matter of hours, you can go hike the forest, swim in a pond beneath ice-cold waterfalls, pack up the car, drive to the beach and catch a sunset surf-sesh.
With family, we explored amazing wilderness parks like Yosemite and Yellowstone, as well as all points between.
Often with my friends and their family, I'd spend a good portion of my early teen years hiking the John Muir Trail, the Cascade Mountains, Mount Whitney, among many other places.
There were so many memories and lessons learned along the way. To a great part, I'm sure it's part of who I've become.
But one particular adventure above all that really formed my belief in teamwork and self-discovery.
At 5:00 am, a group of 20 of us, me, my friends and their dads set off for a weeklong hiking trip through the Sierra's.
The day before we each went over our pack list, divvied up the food, water purification tablets, cooking equipment, tents, anything we could carry and need, with the dads taking the heavier items while we took the tents and our own bags, and together we all packed our gear.
We revisited our itinerary with everyone having a map and outline of where we'd be and when. One of the families staying behind was our emergency contact, with the day-by-day plan of our hike just in case something went wrong.
Just in case.
The Best Path Is Sometimes Unclear
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| The Best Path Isn't Always Planned |
Some chose to ride together by what they planned to read, this was a time before Amazon Kindle books were even created, so it was real, hard bound books. Some of the boys chose their cars by the games they would play; others chose their rides not by what they wanted to do, rather, some chose who they'd ride with by who they wanted to avoid being stuck in a car for a few hours.
As soon as everyone was settled in, our little convoy drove for a couple of hours to our base-camp, all of us watching the claustrophobic city open up to the broad horizons that stretched toward the surging mountains. It was summer, and we had turned our backs on the cluster and confinement of the city for a week of unfettered exploration. I dozed off a few different times along the way, 5 am being awful early.
Once we pulled into the base camp, we parked the cars and stretched our legs a bit. Some went off to shit in the woods, others merely to take a piss. The plan was to set camp, stay for the night, then begin our 50-mile circular trek back to this particular spot.
The morning came a little too quick. Anyone who's slept outside on the cold earth knows the stiffness that comes with sleeping on dirt. Even as a teenager it takes you a while to warm up, to stretch out the night stiffness that settles in. The air is refreshing and recuperative, but there's something to be said for the beauty of sleeping in bed.
After a short breakfast, we broke camp and set out on the first leg of our itinerary. The terrain was rough, there were periods of where the trail had degraded to mere gravel. Footing could be slippery, especially on slopes that didn't have switchbacks.
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We walked in the buddy system; each of us partnered with another teen, and you walked at whatever pace the slowest could muster. Typically you chose to match speed with speed, but there was some partners content on drifting back.
The kids led the way, the dads trailing. We all had a rule that if the last dad caught up, you had to clean the "latrine" at base camp. So we hiked with momentum and a purpose.
About mid-day, the clouds rolled in, and the sky turned gray. The change in the air was noticeable. When we had been able to be shirtless, now we were digging for our long-sleeves, and wondering about where we each had packed our rain parkas.
At once, the rain began. Followed closely by lighting, the kind of lightning you hear during one of those storms that shake the house and scare the dog but never actually see.
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| Photo Credit |
This wasn't the first time we were camping and hiking through horrible weather. The difference this time was that with the rain and lightning, we had lost the trail. We were wandering off course, and because of the lightning, we were running further off our path than we had planned. We had set out that morning to make our way to Purple Lake, but now we were surely lost. It wasn't long that we found a lake, and to this day I'm not certain it was Purple Lake, but it would suffice for the time being.
That's because avid hikers know that if you lose your way in the forest, you want to stay in one spot so the search team can find you.
And in short order, the dads were able to find our location and meet up with us, where we set camp and stayed through the night.
It's like planning a hike only to take the deer trail instead of the well-trodden footpath.
As the writer, all I can do is to try and make the message as coherent as possible, one that I want to share and one that is hopefully read. Planning is essential, but often we get more out of losing our way, of walking down the deer trail than the road heavily traveled.
It's often what we can't control that get in our way, and what leads to great discovery.
Stumble a little through the underbrush, explore new things and find out that the path you first began has now led you down a whole new road.
It's a journey worth discovering.
If you're interested in reading about ways you can self-publish your own Amazon Kindle Books, or are interested in habit formation, you can check out those articles here and read a productivity and habit post here.
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
The Cuckoo Bird and The Turtle
The Delusions We Believe
Just because we believe something, doesn't make it true.
Just because we feel, doesn't mean it matters.
That's one of the biggest issues we face today. There are too many ways to get an opinion or feeling out to an audience that thinks that because we have a bigger megaphone, our views are correct. Not true.
Just because you can self publish your own book, doesn't mean that A) you should, and B) it's a worthwhile subject.
The question we have to ask ourselves then, is there proof for what I think and feel, that it may matter to someone else?
Because if we feel something, but we're in the minority, is it valid?
If we examine it from a minority versus majority perspective, then yes. There's validity in being the outspoken voice. The creaky gear gets the grease as they say.
But if we are in such a minority as to be unreal, well then, we're just cuckoo.
The turtle knows the trajectory is a long slog. It's not about broadcasting every hour with what is, and what isn't, popular.
It's about researching, and testing, what's important to your point of view.
What path do you choose moving forward? Do you self publish your own book without testing ideas, or do you publish only after extensive planning?
Just because we believe something, doesn't make it true.
Just because we feel, doesn't mean it matters.
That's one of the biggest issues we face today. There are too many ways to get an opinion or feeling out to an audience that thinks that because we have a bigger megaphone, our views are correct. Not true.
Just because you can self publish your own book, doesn't mean that A) you should, and B) it's a worthwhile subject.
The question we have to ask ourselves then, is there proof for what I think and feel, that it may matter to someone else?
Because if we feel something, but we're in the minority, is it valid?
If we examine it from a minority versus majority perspective, then yes. There's validity in being the outspoken voice. The creaky gear gets the grease as they say.
But if we are in such a minority as to be unreal, well then, we're just cuckoo.
The turtle knows the trajectory is a long slog. It's not about broadcasting every hour with what is, and what isn't, popular.
It's about researching, and testing, what's important to your point of view.
What path do you choose moving forward? Do you self publish your own book without testing ideas, or do you publish only after extensive planning?
Friday, November 18, 2016
Broken Hearted
In morning there's always the light
Hard to imagine it in the dark we live
They say there's light at the end of the tunnel
Hard to believe when all there is right now is gray
Standing in the shadows that morning holds near
It's the evening that we all fear
You always said you wanted wings,
But that was hard to believe in
esoteric, philosophic meanderings
It's not like you struck or hate
you chose to save a life
so when you see your maker be sure to share this with him tonight
without you, the life you leave isn't one worth living
Hard to imagine it in the dark we live
They say there's light at the end of the tunnel
Hard to believe when all there is right now is gray
Standing in the shadows that morning holds near
It's the evening that we all fear
You always said you wanted wings,
But that was hard to believe in
esoteric, philosophic meanderings
It's not like you struck or hate
you chose to save a life
so when you see your maker be sure to share this with him tonight
without you, the life you leave isn't one worth living
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